All my life, up until a certain point, I did not have a girlfriend. I always felt that my mom kinda tried to perhaps stray me away from seeing anyone. She never encouraged me to talke to them or anything. When I was 15, I wanted to put up a Pamela Anderson poster up o my wall. One day when she got angry with me for whatever the reason was, she came into my room and tore it down. It was NOT a naked poster. But she just said that I want only something thats my “Appropriate”. As if looking at girls was a no no for me:/ So I could not have them on my wall, I always felt kinda like a bad boy whenever I got the chance to look at a girl in a Victoria’s Secret magazine, and I always felt as if me having an iterest in th opposite sex was restricted. ot that my mom wanted me to be gay, LOL, just that she kind of always thought of me being permanetly 2 years old or something. We got a computer back in 93. In those days, computers oly had one account setting. I was 16 and one night, started putting pics of victoria’s secret models in lingerie ranging from Stephanie Seymour to Laetitia Casta up on the computer screen.However, I did not get yelled at for having those on. Not even spoken to. It went on for about 2 more years. Then I started looking at other girls of other races. ow let me tell you this, I’m white and my mom is not only kinda selfish whe it comes to what who I want to go out with. God forbid, if I saw an Asian girl. Asians have always been my fav ever since my dad was alive. He died when I was 12. I always wanted to go out with an asian girl. Well back in 99, I started putting up these 2 Asian girsl named Morena Corwin, and Sung Hi Lee. Now here is the thing. The pics of them would practically be the same as Stephanie’s and Laetitia’s. Revealing but never nude. Only then, when I started having their pics did I see a slight reaction. Then I switched to a latina chick, Adriana Lima. Now the question is, after all that time, why would she, my mom, react slightly to those? And why did I feel it to be ok, feel comfortable, or even (In a non sexual way) get some excitement frm having this pics on the screen or even screen saver??? I am pretty sure I have the answere to my own question, but I think I may ot at the same time.

My own theory was that I felt repressed or something and I was combating.

All my life, up until a certain point, I did not have a girlfriend. I always felt that my mom kinda tried to perhaps stray me away from seeing anyone. She never encouraged me to talke to them or anything. When I was 15, I wanted to put up a Pamela Anderson poster up o my wall. One day when she got angry with me for whatever the reason was, she came into my room and tore it down. It was NOT a naked poster. But she just said that I want only something thats my “Appropriate”. As if looking at girls was a no no for me:/ So I could not have them on my wall, I always felt kinda like a bad boy whenever I got the chance to look at a girl in a Victoria’s Secret magazine, and I always felt as if me having an iterest in th opposite sex was restricted. ot that my mom wanted me to be gay, LOL, just that she kind of always thought of me being permanetly 2 years old or something. We got a computer back in 93. In those days, computers oly had one account setting. I was 16 and one night, started putting pics of victoria’s secret models in lingerie ranging from Stephanie Seymour to Laetitia Casta up on the computer screen.However, I did not get yelled at for having those on. Not even spoken to. It went on for about 2 more years. Then I started looking at other girls of other races. ow let me tell you this, I’m white and my mom is not only kinda selfish whe it comes to what who I want to go out with. God forbid, if I saw an Asian girl. Asians have always been my fav ever since my dad was alive. He died when I was 12. I always wanted to go out with an asian girl. Well back in 99, I started putting up these 2 Asian girsl named Morena Corwin, and Sung Hi Lee. Now here is the thing. The pics of them would practically be the same as Stephanie’s and Laetitia’s. Revealing but never nude. Only then, when I started having their pics did I see a slight reaction. Then I switched to a latina chick, Adriana Lima. Now the question is, after all that time, why would she, my mom, react slightly to those? And why did I feel it to be ok, feel comfortable, or even (In a non sexual way) get some excitement frm having this pics on the screen or even screen saver??? I am pretty sure I have the answere to my own question, but I think I may ot at the same time.

My own theory was that I felt repressed or something and I was combating.

Here are some examples. Now remember, when the othr girls were i these types of pics, tere did not seem to be a problem.

http://lolacorwin.sitesled.com/morenacorwin/mystique/m_mystique054.jpg

http://i46.photobucket.com/albums/f142/morenacorwin/lingerie02/m_lingerie538.jpg

http://i46.photobucket.com/albums/f142/morenacorwin/lingerie02/m_lingerie659.jpg

All my life, up until a certain point, I did not have a girlfriend. I always felt that my mom kinda tried to perhaps stray me away from seeing anyone. She never encouraged me to talke to them or anything. When I was 15, I wanted to put up a Pamela Anderson poster up o my wall. One day when she got angry with me for whatever the reason was, she came into my room and tore it down. It was NOT a naked poster. But she just said that I want only something thats my “Appropriate”. As if looking at girls was a no no for me:/ So I could not have them on my wall, I always felt kinda like a bad boy whenever I got the chance to look at a girl in a Victoria’s Secret magazine, and I always felt as if me having an iterest in th opposite sex was restricted. ot that my mom wanted me to be gay, LOL, just that she kind of always thought of me being permanetly 2 years old or something. We got a computer back in 93. In those days, computers oly had one account setting. I was 16 and one night, started putting pics of victoria’s secret models in lingerie ranging from Stephanie Seymour to Laetitia Casta up on the computer screen.However, I did not get yelled at for having those on. Not even spoken to. It went on for about 2 more years. Then I started looking at other girls of other races. ow let me tell you this, I’m white and my mom is not only kinda selfish whe it comes to what who I want to go out with. God forbid, if I saw an Asian girl. Asians have always been my fav ever since my dad was alive. He died when I was 12. I always wanted to go out with an asian girl. Well back in 99, I started putting up these 2 Asian girsl named Morena Corwin, and Sung Hi Lee. Now here is the thing. The pics of them would practically be the same as Stephanie’s and Laetitia’s. Revealing but never nude. Only then, when I started having their pics did I see a slight reaction. Then I switched to a latina chick, Adriana Lima. Now the question is, after all that time, why would she, my mom, react slightly to those? And why did I feel it to be ok, feel comfortable, or even (In a non sexual way) get some excitement frm having this pics on the screen or even screen saver??? I am pretty sure I have the answere to my own question, but I think I may ot at the same time.

My own theory was that I felt repressed or something and I was combating.